Tuesday, March 23, 2010


....is how my car is looking. It shows me up as the uncaring Merc owner I am. Court is convinced I caused the storm because I'm so irresponsible with my automobile.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Dream Shopping

I've just been dream shopping online. I bought a bag and a winter hat.

It's somewhat satisfying to go pretend shopping when you're trying to save money. But do you know what is hard? Actually going shopping after months of saving. I get an uncomfortable feeling, like I really shouldn't be spending any money.

It's a good thing I'm not allowed any real shopping for another few months.

Friday, March 5, 2010


I haven’t emptied my head yet.

I’m really looking forward to our holiday at the end of this year. Really. I’m excited about being away for Christmas.

About being overseas for the FIRST time.

About being away for a decent length of time.

About visiting interesting places.

My excitement is possibly the only thing keeping my head screwed on and my feelings buoyant at the moment.

(My cat is snoring beside me)

When I was driving home today I was thinking about Christmas and, in particular, the gift-giving thing. I may be crucified for saying this (ahaha – Christmas joke).....I’m not a big fan.

I love making people happy. It’s not that I’m nasty or tight-fisted.

I just get a yukky feeling about how much money is spent. By everyone. I feel stressed when buying gifts: ‘Will they like it? Just in case they don’t, I’ll get them another thing’.

Opening presents seems to take so long that it feels like a chore and not like a joyous handing over of gratefulness at all.

And do you know what else? I was spring cleaning a couple of months ago and I have SO MUCH STUFF. I have stuff I’d forgotten about. I really do not need more things.

I would dearly love to have gift-free Christmases. Gatherings of family and friends for a delicious meal and delightful conversation. That’s all I want for Christmas.


I’m having a rough trot at the moment. No, not rough. Flat. I went through a cranky couple of weeks and now I’ve progressed to ‘flat’. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been thinking that it could be because I’m about to lose two of my favourite people at work to the world of babies. It still could be that.

It could also be the fact that I’ve been busy each weekend with things and I just want a break.

It could be that I need to get out and do some exercise.

Who knows....

I’ve had an interesting week. I had to interpret an improv show that I hadn’t realised was going to be on. Not that you can prepare for improv. Prepare for the unexpected? Prepare to be unprepared? It was a good show – really quite funny – and I tandemmed (that looks made up, but I say it all the time and it sounds normal) with my favourite work buddy.....she knows who she is!

Later that same day, a colleague really got my goat. Rather than bottling my frustration and using it to fuel a bitch session with the girls in the office that afternoon, I let him have it then and there. It was inappropriate to go off like that in the corridor at lunch time. I mean, I’m not one for screaming and yelling and stomping my foot, but there were kids around that would have heard what I said. Not cool.

It’s funny how different a day can become. I sorted out my issue with the colleague. I felt slightly ashamed and slightly liberated. It was a weird old day.

Now it’s Friday night. I’m dreading the busy of the weekend.

Our modem has fritzed, so I haven’t been online to read the blogs that I adore for some time. This evening I caught up with them. It was comforting and interesting to read that people on the other side of the world had similar feelings about things.